I wrote, an extremely long post, yet because my status was idle for too long and i havent saved it and its gone. HAI~ I am writing this particular post for the third time and i hope its not going to be lost again...... Its for you.
7months.. It was a long break. I guess it is long enough for me to realise the sense of loss. I had truckloads of fun, meaningfully gone through these few months. Ups and downs were extremes and friends are the wonderful support that are always around.
I left during your lowest point of time. A grave mistake. I couldn't seem to forgive you for everything.. and thinking back now, it is just a little problem, not that it couldn't be resolved, it was just me being too selfish and childish. I didn't try hard to tolerate further, and didnt try hard enough to give you more chances to change. I was in the wrong too.
Its been so long, so so long. i couldn't exactly remember what was the catalyst for our separation.
The meeting on Sunday was sudden. I wasn't giving much confirmation that you would turn up. But you actually came. I was really glad. and unexpectedly you were quite early, waited for me while i took the last glance into the mirror to double checked if everything was alright.
While moving downstairs, the mix feeling overwhelmed me. excited and also worried. I dunno how you would react, i dunno how this meeting is going to turn out to be. With anticipation, i came and join you in ur little blue vehicle. We made eye contact, smiled and i realised that you carry that charisma, yet composed. Very different from what it used to be, very grown up you.
Moving on to choosing lunch, you would rather i choose something that i crave for. Thats being very gentleman. You know i enjoyed that particular food and it was really sweet of you to drive me all the way there. The food was great. as delicious as it used to be. The place brought back lots of memories which i didn't expect.
We had a very casual chat, so casual that it didn't felt any sense of drifted away, just loads of catching up to do. We were so fluent, i was so comfortable with talking to you. I have no idea which meal were we consuming, but i guess it was a combi of all, Lunch, High Tea and/or Dinner.
I haven't been driving lately. It was quite a surprise that you nudge me to take over the wheels. The feeling of nervousness engulfed me. Entrusted me to actually drive your few month old car?!
I have totally no idea where we were heading to. luckily you guided me throughout. all the roads around were so foreign to me. finally after maybe 1/2hrs of drive, we reach a place that seems familiar to me. Got down the vehicle, we went for a stroll around the park. I was totally engrossed in my own world of grumbling about all the mishaps that i totally forgot that he is diligently listening to everything and gave me some constructive comments. It felt good, sharing my burden with someone else. For once, my heart felt much lighter.
after almost sunset, we left and went around the industrial estate in that cute little vehicle. it was great!
The whole day was fun. Thank you so much.
P.S.: I Miss You.
and i meant it from the bottom of my heart. I believe you meant the same thing too.