I didn't expect the movie to be so good.

A saint once decreed, that a man must agree to a lady's proposal on this day.

The most commonly used words in love letters is "miss", not "love".

Its touching, very very touching. i cried til i couldn't stop. Couldn't believe that i actually took 1 month before i finally went to watch this movie! Lucky i managed to catch it before its brought down the cinema's now showing.

Be grateful that we do not need to wait for 1 leap year to meet again.

For the past, I didn't know exactly why i was doing that and what was the purpose for everything single thing that i do. Why did i reject when i had never given a chance?

Now, for once, Im clear headed of where Im heading to.

I was jealous, because i miss.
I was hurt, because i care.
I was happy, because u smile
I was sick, because i love.

Simple. I guess the sudden change in me, was what i had always been hiding.

Lets start from the beginning all over again. Shall we? =)

Been long since the last time i fall sick.

This time is quite seriously ill..Couldn't make it to work, although i really want to.

Mum says i have to take care of myself before i leave for my HK trip. So i'd be a good girl, finish up the necessary medications and be well soon! =)

I wrote, an extremely long post, yet because my status was idle for too long and i havent saved it and its gone. HAI~ I am writing this particular post for the third time and i hope its not going to be lost again...... Its for you.

7months.. It was a long break. I guess it is long enough for me to realise the sense of loss. I had truckloads of fun, meaningfully gone through these few months. Ups and downs were extremes and friends are the wonderful support that are always around.

I left during your lowest point of time. A grave mistake. I couldn't seem to forgive you for everything.. and thinking back now, it is just a little problem, not that it couldn't be resolved, it was just me being too selfish and childish. I didn't try hard to tolerate further, and didnt try hard enough to give you more chances to change. I was in the wrong too.

Its been so long, so so long. i couldn't exactly remember what was the catalyst for our separation.

The meeting on Sunday was sudden. I wasn't giving much confirmation that you would turn up. But you actually came. I was really glad. and unexpectedly you were quite early, waited for me while i took the last glance into the mirror to double checked if everything was alright.

While moving downstairs, the mix feeling overwhelmed me. excited and also worried. I dunno how you would react, i dunno how this meeting is going to turn out to be. With anticipation, i came and join you in ur little blue vehicle. We made eye contact, smiled and i realised that you carry that charisma, yet composed. Very different from what it used to be, very grown up you.

Moving on to choosing lunch, you would rather i choose something that i crave for. Thats being very gentleman. You know i enjoyed that particular food and it was really sweet of you to drive me all the way there. The food was great. as delicious as it used to be. The place brought back lots of memories which i didn't expect.

We had a very casual chat, so casual that it didn't felt any sense of drifted away, just loads of catching up to do. We were so fluent, i was so comfortable with talking to you. I have no idea which meal were we consuming, but i guess it was a combi of all, Lunch, High Tea and/or Dinner.

I haven't been driving lately. It was quite a surprise that you nudge me to take over the wheels. The feeling of nervousness engulfed me. Entrusted me to actually drive your few month old car?!

I have totally no idea where we were heading to. luckily you guided me throughout. all the roads around were so foreign to me. finally after maybe 1/2hrs of drive, we reach a place that seems familiar to me. Got down the vehicle, we went for a stroll around the park. I was totally engrossed in my own world of grumbling about all the mishaps that i totally forgot that he is diligently listening to everything and gave me some constructive comments. It felt good, sharing my burden with someone else. For once, my heart felt much lighter.

after almost sunset, we left and went around the industrial estate in that cute little vehicle. it was great!

The whole day was fun. Thank you so much.

P.S.: I Miss You.
and i meant it from the bottom of my heart. I believe you meant the same thing too.

I guess I've hurt you. I didn't meant to,

I know things aren't really possible between us.

I'm selfish, for i know i only want otherwise.

Its a pleasure to have a very expressive some1 to entertain me every now and then.

Yet i'm firm that it is not what i am looking forward to in life.

Letting you know during the early stage is hoping that i wun be accrual to ur pain.

Hope you do understand my stand.

Please don't lose me as a friend.

I'm Sorry J.

Its really not my fault and not what i wanted in the first place.
AT LEAST I'M NOT TOTALLY AT FAULT.

I didn't expect things to turn out this way. I mean, I had never asked for a chance to know it personally, neither did i ever thot of making it seems like i am taking things for granted.

Now i guess, I did it again. Karma is so gonna hit me.

What the hell is wrong?

I dun understand la. Seriously. I don't see why am i being treated so coldly.

BEING IGNORED on MSN.

NOT ONLY ONCE, or TWICE.

FINE! I know you are now a different person, doing different things, having a different world.

I might just be a passerby who happens to have changed your life for the better or higher possibility, for the worst.

I may have hurt you, but i don't see how half a year didn't change you a bit at all. and, what's with those handmade flowers and cards on V-day if you would rather ignore me NOW? and wat the fucking hell was that?! meeting up with my sister behind my back to give me all these stuff? I don't know what you are up to, SERIOUSLY.

and i think you hurt me deep enuff too. You should know.

For the better or the worst, stop asking my sisters about me! If you want to know anything, ASK ME. I can tell you the exact answers you want!!

Maybe you have some1 new in mind. If it is, i would be very glad for you.

Fucking angry with every single thing mishap happening to me.
EVEN THE OFFICE PC IS ALSO PISSING ME OFF. WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE CORRUPTED?! BLOODY HELL!

I DON'T WANNA SAY ANYMORE.

I have to say, I'm getting quite irritated with everybody.

Sometimes i just want to say, I don't think i owe anyone any explanation.

What matters the most, is being
happy with the way we are.

So why the pressure?! Environmental pressure forces people to make the WRONG decision at times, it becomes a LIFETIME regret!

We'll never know what's going to happen in the future, but definitely hope all to STOP THOSE questioning and NONSENSICAL STUFF. We like to be ambiguous and stop asking please? Thank you.